Trust

The phrase "Trust in the Lord," can be so easily said when you're not the one in the midst of the decision, trial or whatever you might be facing. As many of you know, Jason and I are expecting our first child early September, Savannah Grace Lynn. I know that God has ordained this, performed the miracle and has a plan. I'm feeling somewhat frustrated, curious, and don't necessarily understand what God is doing? I've waited 30 years to be given this gift of joy and feel torn with the decision to be a stay at home mom. I love my job and it has been nothing but a blessing and Godsend to me. I prayed for a job that I would be making a difference in the lives of others and He gave it to me. I also find myself refreshed, encouraged and purposeful with my interactions with those whom cross my path. I was informed that I qualify for only 6 weeks of maternity leave, in which I am grateful for, but can't imagine leaving a 6 week old child this soon. Although, I am not facing the fork in the road yet, I tend to worry, fret and analyze getting there. I know God has a plan for both these blessings in my life and He will pave the way, I just need to trust Him.

God is a God of detail and order, I know He will lead the way.      

I read this passage today and thought of how beautiful and thought out everything He does, is.

Psalm 139
¹³ For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
¹⁴ I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
¹⁵ My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
¹⁶ Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.
¹⁷ How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
¹⁸ If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

The powerful words expressed in this passage say it all. To think of how detailed God is, marvels me.

Orchestrated by God

I had an amazing God moment today at work. I met a woman who had a brain aneurism just like my mom did but only about 6 years ago. In much better health than my mother she told me her story and I shared with her my mothers. It turns out that they both share the same birthday just 4 apart an she she spent the first 6 years of her life in West Covina, as did my mom. She then moved to Barstow, CA . which is the next major town from where I grew up. Talk about small world. She proceeded to show me a monitor she had on her leg that sent electrodes down her leg to help her balance by stimulating then neurotransmitters in her brain. I began to cry with both hope and excitement at the thought of this device being able to help my mother walk again. Since her recent brain surgery last September she has been unable to walk to the restroom on her own without falling. I'm amazed at how and why God brings people in our lives. I was so encouraged by this meeting today orchestrated by God. He must be writing a melodious piece for His heavenly symphony to play.